Lots to update

It has been quite a while since I updated the blog. So much has happened and some of it has been very difficult to share. I have gotten a little bit of judgement from a few family members because of this blog. I have a very large family and at first I was so hurt that some deleted me off facebook all over this blog. I counted and realized that I lost 8 members of my family off facebook. I then recounted the family I still had and that count equaled 98 members still on my facebook. Then I realized that there were and still are many of my family members that are not even on facebook. I then was able to see that I have far more support than nonsupport.

So, Larry was at Snake River in their '3 side' for a very short while when he was attacked from behind. They then moved him to the '2 side' I guess each side is a bit less violent. He hopes to get to '1 side' soon but has been told you have to be there for a year before you can go to '1 side'. I struggled with sharing the information about him being attacked because I was fearful that some people might feel he deserved it. I feel like no matter what you may feel about him or even others that have been convicted of the same type of offense, it is still not right to have their family suffer like that. Larry can handle a beating, he is a big tough guy and I don't worry about him so much, but if you knew how it made his mother and children cry, you would see that it is not right to make a family suffer like that. His head was split and bleeding, his finger got broken, and his nose was bloody. He became very jumpy and uneasy after the attack because he was attacked from behind and didn't see it coming. I can't believe that men can think they are cool to jump someone from behind. It is very bothersome and caused a great amount of tears for my children and especially my mother in law. I hurt for them.

I quit posting here when that happened. It was hard because I was so angry!! I am trying to forgive and learn that everyone in this life has a story and a family and usually someone somewhere loves them. We are learning some very powerful lessons. My kids have admitted that they are not ready to forgive some people in this case, and for now that is ok. I feel it will come in time.

I am able to see Larry about twice a week now. As of today, it has been 4 months since my kids have seen their dad. It has been awful, they have nightmares and cry about it a lot. I feel so bad for them. I would even give my visits away if I could make them happen for my kids. They need their dad. We have appealed the decision for them to not see him, and we are awaiting the appeal. I pray it will happen soon.

We have moved to Homedale about a month ago. We are all so much happier here. I can finally feel like we are starting to live again. Life is good and I still love the man I married more than ever. I had a wonderful visit with him today, it was very spiritual and I felt the spirit with us and I can feel his love for Larry.