Stress-o-meter

I have decided that our stress rate is finally easing up a bit. If I were to put our life on a stress-o-meter, with 100 being the highest, I would say that we are finally at around a 50. Our life before foster care was about 0 to 10 most of the time. During the time we were doing foster care, it was about 80-90 on a daily basis. During the time Larry was in county jail when we were dealing with all the stabs continually, our stress rate in our home was around 120-150 (remember 100 is the highest, YES, it was that bad!!). So to be about a 50 tells me we will survive. I know we will never make it back to a 0 as long as Larry is not home. So for the next 68 months, 16 days, my life will be lonely and stressful. I can't wait until March 12, 2017 when the love of my life will return to life with his family again. We all miss him so much!! I can't wait until he gets to where he is going and I will be able to visit him. In the last 7 months I have had 30.5 hours of time to have physical contact with him. After being together for more than 20 years, that has been an absolute nightmare for me. Once he is in the prison he will stay at, I can have three hour visits whenever I can afford to visit him. I hope he will be close enough that I will be able to afford to see him soon and often. Please pray for this for us, also, that our kids will be able to see him soon. He will be denied visitation from them initially and then we can appeal it. Both of the kids have cried over this and it breaks my heart that I can't fix it for them. As a mother, it hurts when you have no choice to be able to help your own children. It stinks that my word counts for nothing. I know it is in my children's best interest to be able to see their dad. Please pray that the time will go quickly for them until he can hug and kiss them again.